I have been reading many books on running lately and I am currently reading Bart Yasso's "My Life on the Run". I am struck at how inspiring these runners are. Reading through these books has caused me to do a little soul-searching of my own. I am asked a lot about how I got into running and why I run. Anyone who has ever asked me that question can vouch for the fact that there is an initial silence that comes from me and then saying what I believed to be true at the time which is something like..."Oh I used to run and I wanted to get back into it" or.... "I think I was bored one day and googled different races and decided that might be fun".... It wasn't until I did some real ugly deep down soul searching that I realized why it is I do run.
I run for many reasons. I run to give my dad and I a common ground and a way for him to be proud of me. I run from my demons which have consisted of drinking heavily in my past. I run to deal with my past. I run to give my mom and her family the proverbial middle finger for all the times they have thought and said I was nothing. I run because I love the way it makes me feel and look. I run to escape my bad days and celebrate my good days. I run because one of these days I WILL qualify for Boston. Most of all I run because that is something that will never let me down or disappoint me. Most people in my life have either left me or disappointed me in a huge way. Running is very theraputic for me and much cheaper than a therapist!
I think in the past I was ashamed of saying why I run. I am surprised at the amount of runners who started running as a way of therapy from whatever demons it may be that they have. I am not ashamed anymore and I have embraced my life as it is. Running has given me a new outlook on life and in many ways saved my life. Running saved me from my dark days and even darker nights.
So....why do you run???