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Why I Run...

Posted by D Wagner May 12, 2011

I have been reading many books on running lately and I am currently reading Bart Yasso's "My Life on the Run". I am struck at how inspiring these runners are. Reading through these books has caused me to do a little soul-searching of my own. I am asked a lot about how I got into running and why I run. Anyone who has ever asked me that question can vouch for the fact that there is an initial silence that comes from me and then saying what I believed to be true at the time which is something like..."Oh I used to run and I wanted to get back into it" or.... "I think I was bored one day and googled different races and decided that might be fun".... It wasn't until I did some real ugly deep down soul searching that I realized why it is I do run.


I run for many reasons. I run to give my dad and I a common ground and a way for him to be proud of me. I run from my demons which have consisted of drinking heavily in my past. I run to deal with my past. I run to give my mom and her family the proverbial middle finger for all the times they have thought and said I was nothing. I run because I love the way it makes me feel and look. I run to escape my bad days and celebrate my good days. I run because one of these days I WILL qualify for Boston. Most of all I run because that is something that will never let me down or disappoint me. Most people in my life have either left me or disappointed me in a huge way. Running is very theraputic for me and much cheaper than a therapist!


I think in the past I was ashamed of saying why I run. I am surprised at the amount of runners who started running as a way of therapy from whatever demons it may be that they have. I am not ashamed anymore and I have embraced my life as it is. Running has given me a new outlook on life and in many ways saved my life. Running saved me from my dark days and even darker nights.


So....why do you run???

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Whew! I'm still living off my high from running the U of I half marathon this past Saturday. The weather was pretty good. The only real obstacle was the wind that was blowing out of the E, SE at 15-25mph. I barely felt it. I finished with a surprising time of 2:04:20.


Leading up to the race my training was not where it normally is going into a half marathon. I hurt my knee and was out of commission for about 3 weeks and then I was sick for about a week. So all in all I am very pleased with my time. I went into the race more calm and relaxed than I have ever been going into a race. I did not put the extra pressure on myself of having a time goal for this one. I took off in the 2:05 pace group. Within a mile I passed them and began running my own race. I felt great! I looked down at my watch every once in awhile to see what my pace was and I was averaging anywhere from 9:10 per mile to 9:24 per mile. At mile 6.5 (roughly half way point) I did a body check to see how everything was holding up. I was happy to see that it still felt pretty easy and my body was holding up. At mile 10 I saw my mother-in-law and she handed me my last pack of GU. I started to feel the effects at this point. My legs were getting heavier and it was getting more difficult to propel my body forward but I still wasn't hurting in any way.


Then, I remember seeing the stadium and it feeling like we were running around it forever. All I remember thinking was, "My God, where is the entrance already???". At that point I was ready for it to end. I came into the stadium and crossed the finish line with a smile of my face. I had finished in 2:04:20 which was my 2nd fastest time in a half marathon. I never expected to do so well!


I do have to say that from last year to this year the U of I half marathon/marathon has improved dramatically! They have done such a great job with improving the race. The course was better than I expected and this race will definatly be on my race calendar every year.


Happy Running!

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D Wagner

D Wagner

Member since: Nov 20, 2009

My blog will follow my running journey up to and through my 1st Marathon... Chicago 2010! You will read about my inspirations, PRs (hopefully!), and of course my struggles. So feel free to share your stories as well!

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