So on June 1, 2009 I was diagnosed with breast cancer. After chemo, surgery and radiation, I am completely cancer free. I have decided I need to be more physically fit and it has taken me awhile to decide how to do that at 41 years old, mother of four, deployed husband, cancer survivor and 250 POUNDS !!!!!!!! It took a while to become comfortable enough with myself to not be embarrassed to say I wanted to exercise out loud. I have always felt like people were laughing at me when I would mention exercise because I was so overweight and I have never ever been physically active, not even when I was young. I just don't do physical !!!!! So I finally said it out loud to my wonderful husband one day and he was super supportive. Then I decided what I really want to do is run. I started googling and found couch to 5k. That seemed simple. Then I put on my tennis shoes out of the closet-----you know the ones I bought b/c they were really cute !!!!! OUCH-----I couldn't even run 30 seconds in them. So I started to give up. then I googled some more. You see the internet can't judge you and you don't have to actually say it out loud to anyone. So I found out that people move their foot differently and running shoes are designed for more than looks-----what a concept !!!!! I started paying attention to the way I walk and discovered what type of shoes I needed. I went shopping. I actually decided to tell the girl in the store why I was there, but I was really uncomfortable saying it until she acted excited for me and started telling me things about running and shoes that was extremely helpful. She explained that she started with couch to 5k and she was embarrassed too----really??? this cute skinny girl?? So I started reading blogs and sure enough other people had been in my exact same situation and had been successful !!!!! So I found my shoes and today I tried again. I put my four year old in the jogging stroller that had been in the garage and discovered the tires were flat !!!! I got a neighbor to pump them up so I could go for a walk-----still too embarrassed to say I was going to try running. I stopped running when I saw people looking at me and thought "this is stupid". I also ran at the edge of dark so people wouldn't notice me so much. When I got back to the house I felt completely exhausted and better about myself than I have in a long time !!!!!! It was great. My four year old said "mama that was fun".
So I guess I survived my first run, if you can call it running. I ran (slowly) for about 60 second and walked for about 90 seconds. then the running parts kept getting shorter and shorter but I made it around the block. tomorrow I will use the car to measure the distance and I didn't time my "run" but I think it was about 15-20 minutes.
Registered to walk in the Rock n Roll Marathon in November with my husband. Wish me luck !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!