Thanks everyone especially you Dmloud. I've really loved your support and honesty throughout this whole thing. It did take a lot of courage to post this. Admitting your wrong is never easy. Going further to say I've got a problem is the worst. I spoke w/ my mentor at great length yesterday, we cried together and prayed together. I have a lot of support to help me stay on track. I'm healthy thus far and everyone is going to keep me that way. If I weren't so accountable I could easily fall into a bad lifestyle. No one should ever take that road to destruction. I don't want to be that kind of role model.

I don't plan to leave this post up past today so I won't encourage the wrong behaviour but I wanted to let everyone know how the appointment went. I almost backed out of going. It would have even been easy to not be totally honest w/ the nutritionist about my desires and goals but I am honest so I opened up about everything and I'm glad I did. Now I have good sound advice to follow and reassurance that I have a perfectly fine woman's body that I can improve w/ weights but weightloss is not my answere. Still a hard truth to swallow but if I truly want it all the fit way.

Thanks again.