As for the food issue I would recommend a couple things. First of all if your finding yourself hungry in the evening and unable to stop eating it's probably b/c you didn't eat a big enough dinner. I have increased all my meals just by a little bit and eat a lt. snack between them and now I don't feel the need to "over indulge" in the evening. Secondly don't keep your weakness foods in the house or buy smaller containers of it. I keep healthy inulgent snacks around for when I need a sugar fix. Like FF puddings, FF or lowfat icecream, pretzels, FF pringles diet snack cakes or make angel food cake. There are tons of healthy snack options. Lately my favorite is pb on wheat and some skim milk.

As for the question about having an ED. If you have the thoughts and are considering acting on them please go talk to someone now while you can still rationalize why it is a bad idea to purge. I have the thoughts too but after seeing my nutritionist this week and hearing her tell me all about how bad an ED is for the body, brain etc. No way am I gonna do that to myself. I'd much rather learn self control and exercise to stay fit. I have had an eating disorder in the past and it always sends my health down a very bad path. It takes a long time to recover and be normal again. Some people never make their way back. I have a friend who is dying from Anorexia. All her hair fell out, she is now 65 lbs. She has many broken bones from being so weak and falling all the time. Her teeth have all turned black. She can't rationalize any more. She sees nothing wrong w/ what she is doing to herself. You don't want to end up like that. By the way she has seizures daily now and constant panic attacks. There is no quality to her life but she can't stop.

You have a chance here to learn to eat enough calories to keep you satisfied and healthy. You can learn to make healthy snack choices and stop eating when full. Snacks are meant to be enjoyed not make a whole meal out of. Next time you find yourself snacking, get a tall glass of water, eat something healthy like a sand. or salad then if you still want junk have it. I'm sure you'll eat much less though after the sand. and water.

Ok, done preaching. I wish you the best. Honestly. I've been there. Don't let it happen to you. It is not pretty.

For many years - I am the definition of a binge eater - Been 300+ pounds. Now 190.

MTP rule # 1) Drink 2 full glasses of water before your snack
#2) Do not let yourself become over hungry - If you are always hungry at night you are in risky territory
#3) Make sure you are taking a good multi-Vitamin - Sometimes your body being deficient in something can be enough for you to go overboard.
#4) Keep some rescue food around. For me - After I eat some bad - usually my mind makes me pause becuase I should stop - This is the time I know eat carrots - no not becuase they sound good, but it helps clense the evil food taste away.
#5) If you do have a bad day / night - forget about it - if you can be good 80-90% of the time you are golden
#6) keep working out - In the last 3 years, I have been rescued many times becuase no matter what I eat - I do not let it make me miss a workout.

#3 above has made all the difference lately - I can handle being a little hungry and not lose it if my body is not deficient in minerals or vitamins.

The No Pudge brownies come in a premade mix in a box. They're usually found in local supermarkets by the regular brownie mixes.

They also have a line of fatfree icecream =)

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And job well done on making an appt. with the counselor. This could save you a lifetime of trouble.

I also second the idea of having a larger dinner, or eating dinner later at night. Or hey...reschedual your runs to run at night if you can...it'll give you something to do than munch, lol! Then have an after-run refuel and hit the sack.