Hello, all. Hope you are having a great running, tapering or resting week.
Missed my planned runs this week while out of town as I was just down in the dumps and did not feel like running. Knowing that I needed to get back to it, I went out this morning for a planned easy 6 miles. After the first mile, I took my usual 4 mile loop but decided to run it the opposite direction, which I had never done before. Was totally relaxed the whole way at a nice steady pace. I quickly found myself lost in my thoughts.
I thought about all of you, your accomplishments, your hard work training this year, your PR's and lessons learned. I thought about all of you who have shared your life changes and challenges, your stories of running with friends or loved one, and some of you who lost friends or loved ones. And I said a prayer.
As I turned to run into the rising sun, I thought about Avery, a life cut far too short. And I thought of her parents and said a prayer for them. I was mesmerized by brilliant autumn colors all around me as the sun rose. During this stretch it felt like my feet were not even touching the ground as I ran.
I then thought of a great friend I recently lost in a plane accident. His name was also Brian, he was my age, he was the "twin" brother I never had. I never got to say good bye and regretted that the last time we were to have gotten together, I had something come up and had to cancel. And then I cried. But I kept running.
The next thought I recall is when I realized that I was singing along to the music I had lightly playing into my headphones. I am sure the passers by thought I was crazy.
As I finally re-entered my neighborhood and neared my home, my thoughts went back to my friend. He shouldn't have left so soon. And I sobbed, but never stopped running. I ran for him today.
This was a run that I did not want to end...but it had to so I could get back to life.
When the run was over, I realized that I had never looked at my Garmin, never checked my time, my pace or my HR, but had somehow run the entire 6.1 miles at exactly my planned easy pace. And I realized as I reflected on the previous hour why I choose to run. I needed this today.
Too many times, I have concerned myself with my pace, my HR, my upcoming race, would I PR, etc. And yet I was forgetting that running should be fun, it should be therapeutic, it should be enjoyable. I look forward to more runs like today. I hope that you too continue to find the joy in your running.
Good luck to all racing this weekend and next. After all your hard work you will do great. Think, like NRDgirl did, "I am strong, I am fast". Can't wait to hear your stories after.
Stay fearless in all that you do.