W4D1 is in the bag! You know, it was PERFECT for me. I was so happy about my heart rate(HR) and my HR recovery. I'm funny like that. At the end of the first 5 min. I wasn't even thinking about the 5 min, I looked down at my HR monitor and was so excited that I was at 174! I could have easily gone way above that, but seriously, breathing slow steady breaths, and MAKING yourslef relax makes all the difference! I was psyching myself out the past few days, "How am I going to RUN all those minutes." I guess my body was way more prepared for it than my mind. The run was not without stuggle, but it was mental struggle, not so much physical. I finally told my mind to SHUT UP! Then I started to think about what is in the next paragraph.....
I'm not a huge Oprah watcher, but I did see a recent show that was all about a "Vision Board". Where you put sayings, pictures of things you want to achieve/have/goals, etc. I was thinking about that during my run today. My TM basically faces a window and the side of big storage cabinets from Ikea (PAX for you Ikea minded folks). I was thinking about the pictures I have from my first 5K - 5 years ago. I was thinking about my one and only 10K - 5 years ago. I was thinking about the kind of wardrobe I really want to be in...both casual and exercise. I'm going to go ahead and make one! It'll be about 2'x2', just enough to put a few things on and I can stare at it while I'm running. Just as a reminder of what I'm working towards when the runs get hard and I want to quit. So, here are a few items I'm going to be putting on my board: The professional picture that was taken of me while running my first 5K, the flyer of the 5K I want to run on March 29th
, a picture of clothing I want to order in the next few months (right now they don't make my size), and some pictures of women running, who are strong, long and lean. Not THIN, but STRONG. I also want to put some sort of 10K flyer in the board...something for the end of summer. There is one here in July every year, Seafair..if you are familiar with the Northwest at all. It's a huge one, and you get to run down a main streen downtown Seattle while people are getting ready for the huge parade that follows the run. The people cheer you on and it's awesome (yes, this was my first and only 10K years back, I was not prepared for it, but I finished it!)
Thinking about who I really want to be - to stop exising (as SlogOn had mentioned in her testimony post) and start living the life
I want. I've been deep in diapers for 8 years now (yup, 3 kids close together means diapers for FOREVER, LOL). I love my kids dearly, but I need to feel like I'm ME, not just the frumpy housewife taking care of kids, moping the floor, preparing food, etc. It's more of a mindset than a reality, but that's how I'm feeling, and have felt for many years now. I think this running thing is going to really let me burst through this persona and get to where I want to be. Lighter, healthier, happier. I don't really look at loosing weight as the end all be all. It's more like I KNOW it will just make my body feel great. I will have to carry less around all day and I will have a hop to my step. Looking fab is secondary, feeling more energetic, and being healthy, and knowing my body is strong and efficient is primary.
Okay, thanks for letting me vent/think/envision through post.
~Jill
