+December 24th started my current situation...I had been busy all morning baking, preparing for the next day when all of a sudden I began to feel not right. I finished my last batch of cookies, jumped on the treadmill and continued to go down hill from there. I ran 3 miles and knew I needed to stop...felt like I had been run over by a freight train, sore throat, achy, and just totally drained. Christmas morning even worse...but I couldn't rest had my entire family coming over, and I was making the dinner!! So I pushed myself through the long tiring day, finished up with dishes and cleaning around 9 in the evening and from there it was over. I rested as often as I could no running of course, just waited to get better...Dec.31st felt like maybe I was on my way to feeling better when my youngest being just under 2 came down with the flu. I was up all night with her on New Years eve while she threw up every 20 minutes...spent all night cleaning her up and cleaning sheets blankets and pajamas, so we wouldn't run out. I continued this routine for three days with her, then she started to get better, and I woke the next morning to find I myself now had the stomach flu!! So not make this too long...it ended up being 19 days I was too sick to run and do anything, other then of course take care of my kids and everyday things that had to be done... +
+I knew I would need to get back to running slowly, but wow, I am still struggling with getting back into my regular routine!! Before I got sick I was running an average of 20 miles a week...now I am struggling to get 6 miles in a week!!! I am digging deep inside to try and find the strength and motivation to keep me going, and to get me moving more so I can get back to 20 miles a week, but I just seem to be reaching and not finding anything...I know I just need to do it....I have done what I know to find the motivation. I've looked at pictures of me 50 lbs heavier, worked out a racing schedule for 2009, with the first race being in april, I have tried ignoring my feelings while getting in gear and jumping on the treadmill only to find I am hitting the stop button way before I should...I look at my log book from early december and just disgust myself at where I was and where I am now!!! +
++How the **** do I get myself out of this funk, and how should I get back to my average 20 miles a week? When I do run I have been trying to stick to my normal days and mileage I was at before...but each run is always less then what I plan on running. Before I ran 4 miles on tuesdays, 6 miles on thursdays, and 8-10 miles on saturdays...now I'm lucky if I run 3 miles on any of those days...Jan 13th was my first day back running.+ +
+ANY ADVICE???...WILL NOT GIVE UP, BUT WANT TO BREAK THROUGH THIS WALL I'M STUCK BEHIND!!!! +
+Thanks to anyone who may be able to help!! +
+Carey +


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