Mar 22, 2006 9:00 PM
mind games =(
Hay everyone! I just got done doing a race 2day..which by the way was HORRIBLE!! I wanted to do like a 6:50ish which is my goal (for the mile)..but I have been no where near that....((b/c in January, before track practice started I ran a 6:58 and running a 8:something was considered pretty easy for me)) Welp the first meat..i ran a 7:40 and today I ran a 8:06!!!!! Can you believe that???? I can't!! My first lap was a 1:30 then it all crumbled...i started to feel like **** and got TOTALLY discouraged...the 2 girls I was running with gained on me and I was SO mad at myself and just wanted to get it over with and did not even feel like trying..my problem is that once I start to feel a little pain or they gain on me a little...my mind starts playing games with me and I feel like a failure. And It's impossible for me to push myself!! When I used to run by myelf I did SO much better...7:30 was the slowest I ever did for a mile (when I was trying to go fast) and now I can't even do that in practice or races =(....whats my problem? I'm thinking that it might be my mind playing games with me and telling me that I can't do it and that there is no point in pushing because I already fell back..and because my coach has never seen me run a mile faster then 7:40..so.. it's not like he thinks I'm good...so I'm not letting him down or anything. I'm just letting myself down =(
So...any tips or advice? THANKS!!!
-And if I just needa suck it up---please let me know. thanks so much!
((and by the way..i'm also sucking in the 800...my goal was to be a 2:45+ (just under 3:00) And last race I did a 3:29 and this race I did a 3:40!!!!!!!)) My coach told me that I shouldn't do the 2 mile.....i hate being the slowest person on the team when I KNOW that I can be faster....but it's jus tnot happening..)) =(