Yesterday I went to the gym and did my c25k week 2 day 1, and it was sooo hard! I don't know if my body was just tired or the workout really pushed me but I was struggling a bit, but none the less pushing myself with walking at 3.4 mph and running at 5.5 mph. The fastest I have gone (for the entire workout) so far. But it frightens me.. I have never really started a workout and had the motivation to complete it (week to week, month to month) and though I don't want to stop, my body has lost all the energy it had the first week when I started and I was pumped everyday! I will not stop, the only thing that can stop me is me and I will not let my mind sabotage my body! NOT anymore.. I have gone to long in that cycle and I wont go back! I am tired today as well, but I will be on Week 2 Day 2 and I will run my hardest and not let myself talk my body out of a good workout.. not anymore..
So for those who read my yesterdays blog, I talked a good deal about my pug (who ate the sock) So I have more of a story to tell you now. I took him to the vet yesterday morning because even though he did puke up A sock, he wasn't feeling good, shaky, not eating, etc. So after 2-3 days of not eating anything (very unusual for him) I took him in. They did X-ray's and found... something else in his stomach. So he has had surgery before to extract a peach seed out of his small intestine... they really didn't want to have to do surgery so instead (since it was still in his stomach and not his intestine they did a gastroscope thingy to pull it out through his mouth, they were successful!! And low and behold! I have a matching SOCK! Now that sock went into the trash with the other one, no I don't think that's a fashion statement, but at least he is ok.. and sock free!
So much has happened since yesterday. I went to the gym last night, did my reps on the weight machines, accomplished week 1 day 3 on my c25k and loved every second!
The second thing that has happened is my dog has gotten sick. Well this is a normal routine for him, when he was a puppy he ate an entire peach seed, which then caused him to loose all but about 2 inches of his small intestine in the surgery, and he survived. Now, well Sunday, he ate an entire sock (he is about 12 years old) and puked it up, and has been sick ever since. He hasn't eaten anything (luckily he is drinking water) and so I took him to the vet this morning. The vet has already called and confirmed something ELSE in his stomach (not surprising to say the least) so to avoid surgery (for now) they are going to try pulling it out with a scope and if that doesn't work, it will be surgery time all over again. To say the least I'm not scared, I think he can pull through, although I am really getting exhausted from his constant need to swallow things that shouldn't be EATEN! Anyway's, the update on that will be later when its all said and done. Wish him luck!
So today is an exciting day, I completed my full day of cardio (30 min) last night, and every previous day I have been sore that night and the next day. Well hurray hurray Today is the week (or day) that my body starts becoming stronger because NO soreness!!! YAY YAY YAY!!! Oh ya, oh ya! WHOO HOO!
I have been itching all day to get to the gym! I started c25k last week on a thursday, day 2 on friday and couldnt get to the gym sat, sun and monday and its killing me! I cant wait to feel the burn, feel my body getting stronger and know that I am accomplishing something I have never been able to do before. What a thrill it gives me, what a a sense of accomplishment I feel, the pride that runs through me when i start my cool down and all I can repeat to myself is "I did it, I DID it!!!" and smile.
I started at a new gym, really the only gym i've been to in years. For joining this gym I recieve a free 4 week check up with a personal trainer and this trainer gives me a boost by asking me my goals and then showing me the machines, and how to use them, in order to obtain my goals.
"What are your goals?" he asks me
"I have never been a runner, but I have always dreamed of running a 5k one day" I reply my excitment building
"Hmmm well, running is hard, its not like running on a treadmill, were it pushes you along, the road is so much different..." Blah blah blah! I can not believe this guy is actually telling me I shouldn't run! That i shouldnt try and accomplish this huge goal I have been dreaming about for so long! I just smiled and decided in my head that no matter what this guy tells me I should not do, I was, no matter what, going to train for that 5k! I am going to become the runner I never thought i could become.
This guy is telling me no, and I can say is I have to be strong enough to say Yes, Yes i will follow my dream no matter what he, or my boyfriend BTW thinks. It isnt that they are againt the fact that I want to run, and not just run, but accomplish this goal and run a 5k, maybe a 10k, a marathon anyone?! But its that they thinkt he eliptical is SOO much better for you, maybe it is, but it is not what will help me. And i need to stop breaking down and thinking that they are right, because for me, in this time of my life, they are wrong and I have to break away and be here for myself, not for them.
So i head to the gym in about 30 mins. And i will be on the treadmill for 30 min.