Well here I am again, finally writing another blog post. Haven't really seen much reason to write one before now since I haven't really done anything since 9/2/2010. There are a lot of things that contributed to this, a couple even semi-legitimate but the fact is it got hard and it was easier to slip into bad habits. As an exercise in cleansing, let me write the reasons and hopefully I can shake the cobwebs off and see past them.
My last 5K was back on 9/2, just before Labor Day weekend. Was a great run and could have marked my completion of C25K but in my mind I wanted to see 9 consecutive 25+ minute runs like week 7, 8, and 9 should be. But that Sunday I stepped on a rusty Nail in my foot and that wiped out a whole week. I could barely walk normally for most of it but on Saturday 9/11/2010 I did manage a 4.5 mile hike up Mount Monadnock in New Hampshire. So my foot must have been healthy by then. I remember still feeling the sore spot but it was OK. That hike, combined with another lapse in meds that week, left me really sore and I didn't do anything Sunday or Monday.
I planned to resume running Tuesday but my wife was going in for Surgery on Wednesday the 15th so I spent the night trying to help make sure the morning was ready for her. The rest of that week and weekend she was pretty looped on Percocet so I let myself have the excuse of "I need to hang out to take care of her." But I could have found time to run. Probably a week I could have used a run more than ever. But I never made it happen. That was the beginning of all the old excuses rolling back.
Finally got a nudge from some friends on the 200+ pound trhead and got out for a run Last Monday, the 20th. Only did a mile and a half, with all the best plans of it being a gentle warmup and going back to full runs Tuesday. I can't even tell you where the rest of last week went. Just... wasted.
So here I am, more than 6 months into this grand scheme of " Re-Inventing myself by my 40th Birthday"... so far I have lost a whopping 18 pounds and managed to ALMOST complete a 9 week training plan in 28 weeks. ALMOST complete, but not even. The 5K I was shooting for was cancelled and I never booked another, my goal of being really fit by that mountain hike failed and I was still the last one up the hill. I have about 13 weeks till my 40th... enough for... what? How do I break this cycle and get to that 40th with some sort of satisfaction at all... How? All my grand plans and positive thinking and I've let myself slip right back to old habits.
Hopefully I'll post tomorrow or the next day with some spectatular inspiration. or at least some small clue. But right now, I don't see it.
EDIT: On the big plus side, the one shining light, my introduction to running has stuck with my son. He joined the Cross country team and so far in 3 weeks has lowed his 5K time from 47 minutes to 36+/-. At his meet yesterday afternoon he ran 2.2 miles in 20 , tied for 3rd among freshmen and 35 out of 48 total. He had never run before he started with me. So that much I can be, and am, immensely proud of.