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7/29/2010- The good and the bad

Posted by Wideguy Jul 29, 2010

      I got out for a run with my wife last night. I was working on Week 5 day 2 of the C25K program but her pace is a bit slower than mine and she was having an off night so we ended up doing Day 1 instead, with the 5 minute run, 3 walk, 5 run, 3 walk, 5 run.  I ended up stretching my last run out to 11 minutes and felt really good doing it,  so that was nice. And we got to work out together and that is even better . Something I've always enjoyed and very often I need that company for motivation.  She and I are even talking about marathons in a couple years which is just a mind blowing idea. All in all very cool.

 

     This morning I posted in a thread here, the 200+ Pound group, and was reminded by a couple of posters of all the challenges we "bigger" folks face.  We deal with all the physical, obviously. It's a lot harder to propel 280 pounds down the road than it is 180.   But that is only half the battle for some of us. We also have the metal hurdle  of looking down a long long road of 100 pound weigh tloss and overcoming a lifetime of bad habits and deeply ingrained body image.

     All too often we "See" oursleves as fat people, and that make it very easy to give up when a run or a workout gets hard. It's easier to say "Well I already have all the fat clothes anyway."  But the one that really resonated with me today was a poster who said yesterday had been a really bad day. She had no motivation to go out, no desire to exercise, and she hadn't even wanted to log on to any of her "fitness" websites and face other people's workout reports.  Now, in the end she DID go out and did a nice half hour workout. She said she struggled with low motivation and energy and that it didn't feel good. She said she needed motivation.  Then a couple people reminded her, and me, that she was missing the point.  She, and many of us, was looking at "What good is one half-hearted workout when I still have XXX pounds to lose?"  She was missing the fact that she DID get out and exercise. On a day when it would have been so easy to say no, to watch TV or whatever else she enjoyed, she beat that demon, even just for a half hour, and went out for that run!

 

      We congratulated her, and she should congratulate herself. We all should.  Every time we look at the choice between couch and run, and choose run, we should recognize that small victory. Our lives will probably be filled with those forever, and ever time we choose healthy, choose exercise, it will will probably make the next time a little easier.   And when we string 10 or 20 or 30 of those together suddenly we're breathing just a bit easier. We will be moving just a bit more fluidly. And eventually we'll have 100 or 200 or 300... and the weight comes down and so does the pant size.  Then maybe the payoff will be more easily understood.

 

     But when that day comes, and we have to beleive it will, it will only be because of THAT day, when it was hot or rainy and we just didn't want to and we , like her, said "Ah screw it, I'm going out."  So let's learn to give ourselves credit for those days now. These are the days that will bring us to that end goal, and every one of them is a victory in itself.  Congratulate yourself. And go run tomorrow.

 

Cheers

-Wideguy

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Well here it is another week gone. I've had some good luck with runs this week.  My calf pull  healed OK. I took two days off then tried a nice uphill hike and 1/2 mile trail run . It tightened up hard again. I started to worry that it was going to be a longer term thing, started to make excuses for a prolonged "injury break". It kind of pissed me off that I was so willing to just write it off for another week or more... so I decided not to.  Went out after another day off with my wife who runs at a slower pace than me. I took a nice long 10 minute walk  and then when she ran i ran.. focusing on "light and Easy Light and Easy"  soft full contact with my feet on the road and no tension in my calves. We managed to do a nice easy mile and my leg stayed relaxed the whole time. I was really happy that it went that well. Walking around the next day it felt good, not 100% but definitely healing.  So glad I didn't just give in to the easy excuse to quit.

 

Then last night I went out to try Week5 Day 1 of C25K .  My progression through week 4 took almost 3 weeks with interrruptions for family vacation and Scout camp, so I'm feeling a bit "off program " but looking forward to getting back on.  Grabbed my iPod and off I went... only to realize that I didn't have the Week 5 podcast installed and couldn't remember the intervals exactly. in my mind I was saying

"5 minute something? or was it 8?  Well, did 5 minutes  lst week so must be harder right?  and at least two intervals.. but was a  short rest I think?.... "

 

So  I did my warmup and started running ...  did 8 minutes, 3 minute walk  and 13 minutes!!  1.94 miles, (I was so pissed I missed two miles even )  Turns out the program for Day 1 was run5:walk3:run5:walk3:run5.

 

So  Not quite the W5D1 plan, but I did longer intervals, only one break and longer overall run time by 6 minutes, so  I'm counting it!

 

On a seperate note , the "200+ Pound" group here on Active.com continues to be a huge source of support for me. Amazing to see so many heavier people starting up and supporting each other. And you hear so many similar stories of emotional eating, stress, doubt ... but then so many voices chiming in to say "Been there, beat that, and so can you!'   Truly an amazing bunch of people.  Hoping to know them for a long time.

 

I am slowly redefining myself, changing my outlook... I'm starting to think of myself as a "Runner"... it's pretty wild.  The fact that last night, there was some stress in my life  and I looked at my wife and said, "I need to go for a run" ... was such a foreign emotion.

 

I might just like the new me, once I meet him.

 

Off to work

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Posted by Wideguy Jul 20, 2010

OK... so it's been  3 weeks or so?  Wow how time gets away I guess.  A lot has happened since my last post to this but I think the key point is I'm still here, I'm still running and I'm still trying.

 

I ended up rolling my ankle at work the last week of June so decided to take a few days off. Rode the stationary bike once . Then July 2nd-5th I went to New York and Niagara Falls with the family. Did lots of walking, kayaking, playing with the kids and neice and nephew,... but no running.

     Then I was home for 3 days, but still didn't run.  In fact didn't get back out till July 12th!  Two full weeks off.. UGH!  But had a great run that night,  did 10 minutes continuous and felt really strong.  Then another couple days and out on the 15th  for what I could consider a complet W4 day.  Didn't do the intervals like I should have, ended up with a 3 minute, a 9.5 minute and a 6 minute run.... but adds up to more than the 16 minutes of week 4 running so I'm happy.

 

     Along the way , from the 9th through the 16th, I was at Cub Scout Camp with my son. Got a couple nights running in but did lots of walking and rowing etc.  LOTS... so that felt good and kept me active at least

 

     Another dissappointing night on the 17th  but still got 10 minutes running in and pressed on making myself get out regularly again. Good news is the ankle felt completely healed. So not too bad.

 

Then comes last night... and  I think I can consider this a  completed W4D3,  but not QUITE on plan. Here's what  happened...

 

      I went out last night, took a 4 minute warmup and then started the  podcast. (I've been finding I do better with a slightly longer warmup  and the extra 5 minutes out of my life isn't a big deal. )  I took a  slightly different route because I figured I might need some more  distance to finish my run before I got home if I stayed with the  intervals. So I was a little further out than usual near the end of my  first 3 minute run.  As I turned a corner out into a big open stretch of  farmland I saw the lightning... seemed pretty far away but couldn't  tell how far or which way it was heading so I started looking at  options. More house ahead than heading back the way I came so i figured  that was the safer choice. I did my 3 minutes and when the podcast said  "Ok lets cool down for 90 seconds" I just didn't. I figured I could  handle 90 seconds and get just THAT much ahead fo the storm.

      Then the 5 minutes run... and that was managable,  so I kept going.  And  right through the second 2.5 minute walk segment, the second 3 minute  run. Continuous!!

That worked out to be a 15 minute  continuous run covering just over 1.25 miles!!!

      Then, just  as he was saying " ok get ready for your next 5 minute run, it's your  last run so don't be afraid to push it a little."  I was thinking  maybe  I'd go for it!   I was close to home and the storm seemed to be passing  away from me.  I went to jog over a speed bump and landed wrong or  twisted funny or something and felt this sudden shooting pain in my left  calf.  So I managed to slow down gradually, and limped the .25 mile  home. 

 

     So, it's only 15 minutes running, and W4D3  should have been 16 minutes... but it was continuous, so think I can  credit myself the minute?   I have very mixed emotions... great run, and  I really needed one after the disssappointing attempt in the humidity  on Saturday. But then this fluke in the last minutes looks like I'm out  at least a couple days.  Hate that.

 

 

     So all in all, I'm feeling pretty confident in my running again, actually enjoying parts of it too. I've seen a little weight loss, down to 272 the other day but definitely have to do more with the diet to keep that up... walking miles at camp everyday was a huge help, need to work that in more often.  But as I said... I'm still here, I'm still working, I'm still striving to improve myself and my goal of being in the best shape of my life by 40... and that is something.

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