Skip navigation

NEED HELP?|

Previous Next

jenhirr's Blog

January 2008

It's January!

Posted by jenhirr Jan 15, 2008

It was time once again to decide whether or not to renew my gym membership. I see the red lights that illuminate my gym in the morning darkness quite often but it's been almost a full year since I've actually gone in. I peer at the lights from the top of the hill or I run passed them but the lure of the weight machines have not tempted me. With the exception of a recovery spin here and there, the call of the road is just too great. My husband decided he was ready to make a lifestyle change and he renewed both of our memberships which means I really should use it instead of letting that money go to waste. I decided I could benefit from some upper body work and some good solid core training. I'm convinced that I have some pretty good hard abs underneath my layer of flab and it's maybe time to find out if that's true. Plus, it's hard to fake a mile swim without training and I'd like to be able to not trash my arms so quickly in those triathlons. (I have every intention of actually training for them this year.) Anyway, I went to the gym and it was packed! I had to wait for someone to leave so I could take their parking space and the waiting continued every time I wanted to move to a different machine. Where did all these people come from? Have I really been gone that long? And then it occurs to me, It's January and unfortunately, most of these people will disappear around valentine's day and I won't see them again until 2009 kicks off. It's sad really, I sit here with sore but happy muscles ready to take on the next challenge. A challenge that, in essence, defines who I am, the me that is different and separate but the me that lends itself to my mother and wife roles and lets me enjoy some success in all these areas. I feel a sadness for those people who, for whatever reason, don't feel what I feel on a consistent basis and I hope they have something that takes it's place. For me, without the strength I feel from running and exercise I am somehow less, somehow not the same and somehow things are harder. I am grateful for a strong body and the opportunity to challenge myself and work hard and I relish the unspoken kinship I feel with others who enjoy this same lifestyle. We cover the roads and may not speak but I know you are out there!

361 Views 0 Comments Permalink

My kids are sick.  Instead of sleeping, I listened to the wind beat at our house and plaster our windows with wet, slushy snow.   At 4 a.m. when my alarm went off I made the unfortunate decision to turn it off hoping the wind would subside and I could get my 15 miler in later.  The winter storm warning definately intimidated me this time but I hoped the weather would improve over the weekend.  It didn't.  I vowed to do my weekend long run the next day at 3:00 p.m. no matter what.  So many things about this run were just plain torturous!  It took me 25 minutes to run the first two miles into the 40 mile and hour winds,  I'm not used to running in the day time and I could taste my lunch (yummy as it was three hour before) the whole way, I kept slipping on the ice in spite of the spikes I was wearing, and when I changed direction the crosswind covered the roads and me with three foot drifts.  I kept my head down and dwelled on my misery, I helped a man dig his car out of his own driveway, and I ran much slower than I hoped, my "short-cut" that I took to avoid running directly into the wind resulted in 1/2 mile trek through knee deep snow.  My clothes were drenched with snow and sweat and my face was covered with ice and tears but as I crested the hill I saw two things that remind me why I keep doing this to myself....The most beautiful sunset on the horizon with just enough light to see the landscape created by God who has also given me the strength to explore it in ways so many can't and the headlights of a car with my family inside to rescue me and take away the chill.  Oh, how I love running and being in the world and though this particular 15 miler was the most mentally challenging ever experienced, it gave me the courage to get up and try again.

444 Views 0 Comments Permalink Tags: running, winter
jenhirr

jenhirr

Member since: Jul 9, 2007

This blog is all about me, my thoughts, my motivation, and my struggles!

View jenhirr's profile

Recent Comments

No recent comments.

Filter Blog

By date: