ssjd,
I'm really sorry to hear about you injuries.
I remember feeling exactly how you feel. I'm 16, hurt my leg playing soccer and had my surgery done early last september. I'm telling from experience that you've already done one of the best things you can do by joining this site. It's crazy how much talking to people who have been through the same thing helped me. Sharing your stories, hearing about people who have recovered. There were times throughout my entire recovery where i was in huge funks. But when I was, I came to this sight and read all about poeple's recoveries and it reassured me that i was going to be fine. You see the thing is, as long as the recovery is. Have no fear. YOU WILL HEAL. And in most cases, be as strong, or stronger than you were before!! I am. Just take your recovery seriously. Do everything your doctors tell you. You'll be fine and back in no time. (Well, no time was 9 months for me.) Oh jeeze. I totally remember the first week i was in PT, seriously about to cry because he was grinding my leg to the ground trying to get it straight. i remember feeling hopeless because I had one very muscular soccer-leg.....and one flab of nothing. DONT WORRY! I promise you it all comes bock. That goes for range of motion, everything. Don't give up. It all comes back! Also, don't compare yourself to other people who have had similar sugeries. That was probably a big thing I did wrong. Everybody is different, it took me a good couple months to be able to do a perfect straight-leg lift, and I was working really hard every day. When it took another girl on my team who had the surgery about the same time, like not even a month. But what I was going to say, was that first week in pt is when I realized this recovery wasn't going to be what i thought. All last year, Physically, emotionally, and mentally it pushed me to all of my limits as an athlete. But it made me so much stronger. Both as a an athlete, and a person. You see, the thing is, I believe 100% everything happens for a reason. It defiantly takes a very strong person to get through any kind of prolonged rehab. But I don't think anyone would have to go through all of this unless for 1, they could handle it, or for 2, they were going to get something good out of it. So hang in there!!! You'll be fine. You will heal. and showering will become easier.
The entire recovery is about baby steps. And I mean baby steps. lifting your leg, getting muscle back, walking, running, jumping will all become huge accomplishments. make sure you reconize each one so when things seem like there going slow, you can be like remember when I couldnt even straighten me leg?? I think of that all the time and it makes me work so much harder than anyone else in practice.
I wish you the best of luck!!!!